Week 1- Am I really doing this?
“ENFP (extroverted, intuitive, feeler, perceiver) personalities tend to get excited by big ideas but have a hard time finishing through.” I still remember the first time I heard that statement and how defensive my reaction was. I can start and I can finish! Just watch!
Often times, I do finish what I start.
When it comes to my writing, I don’t.
I’ve taken memoir classes, and have not revised my work.
I’ve started a website (multiple) and lose steam, switching to new topics.
I start a poem and don’t even save it because I’m not satisfied with it.
I quietly write my goals to write more in my journal but don’t share them with others out of fear that I won’t make it.
You get the gist.
Writing needs to be a habit, and a habit takes dedication and practice. Instead, I make excuses— “no one would really want to read this!” or “I have to wait until it’s perfect” or the most obvious, “I don’t have time for this, I’ll write when I’m moved to do so.” It’s a negative viewpoint that surely wouldn’t draw anyone in
Whether I’m right or wrong, it’s stopping me from writing.
I worry that this is another project I won’t finish and that as soon as I press “Publish” I’ll just have made an impulsive decision I can’t keep up with.
But that’s yet another excuse. I can’t spend more time worrying about reactions of others or making up excuses than actual writing. So, I’m up for the challenge: Every week, around the same day, I will write an essay. It can be any length and does not have to be polished. I may or may not post it on this website but it may make its way into a larger project.
I started this website with intention to connect, be a resource, and as a way to push myself to uncover. Writing has never failed to be an outlet or source of healing for me, and I’ll need that more than ever in 2017.
I look forward to the community of writers I’ll get to be a part of it!